I must admit that I have been a bit depressed. It has really hit me that my Mom isn't here. It has only been six months, yet it feels like forever. I miss her so much, she was my best friend.
I called her to just vent and get things off my chest....even if I didn't take her advice, it helped me deal. I have tried walking and talking into my cell phone pretending she is listening, but it's not the same. I think it is hitting me because of school. She would always call me to see how the kiddo's were doing, and if they weren't doing their work, she would talk to them. She always called Dylan to tell him that she finally beat a level on Mario. (She had her own Game Boy Advance and loved to play!!) She was such an amazing woman. She could do anything!! I miss calling her and having her walk me through how to upholster my kids new stools, or how to apply the leather patch to my couch. I use to complain about my dh to her also. I love my dh, but sometimes I just need to vent about him. Now I have no-one. I can't complain to him about himself!!! I can't complain to his family about him!! I can't complain to my kids about their dear daddy!!
I know that death is part of life, and that she is in a much better place. Pain free and with all her family and friends whom have been waiting to see her, but it still is hard. I do have my Faith, but sometimes it just gets to you.
Another blogger friend Vaperessence ( I think that was her blog), lost her mom to cancer, but now her blog is gone. I hope she is doing okay.
Thanks for reading and please pray for me. I need it.
Enjoy each other and take alot of pictures and memories of your life.